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Tag: lies

  • The Verdict Is In.

    Last night, I laid in bed, by myself again. I recall God saying something like “Let the record show…” He was talking about marking Nick’s record with the fact that, given the chance (and impetus) to apologize to me (for making my life utter hell for years), he markedly refused without a second thought. He […]

  • Psychic Battles

    I feel like I understand the world these days, but I also know my point of view will be unpopular with most. It returns to a belief I have that I feel will remain unpopular for quite some time: We are all cosmically linked together on a telepathic level. To God, to The Universe(TM), to […]

  • My Worth, Take Three

    What God really wants you to know, children of Eden, is that you’re unworthy of life at this time. You are failing to live with your surroundings, you are failing to tend to the garden. You are failing to thrive alongside the animals that feed you, the plants that feed you. You’ve tamed everything in […]

  • My Worth (Reprise)

    Interference blows. Every time I sit down to write about how I feel, some idiot in my head starts writing things about an existence that doesn’t seem real. I wish it was real. I wish the destroyers were well on their way and I could countdown to the destruction of our species. To the day […]

  • In the Doghouse

    (That was fast.) Crystal’s mad at me again. Her anger comes out in mockery and ridicule. It comes out as dubiousness and even more mockery. It’s not even ill-tempered mockery. She only does this when she’s angry, that’s all. It’s a danger sign. I’m on thin ice. She’ll gut me any time with one well-placed […]

  • Dear God,

    I know I’m an atheist, which in my mind means I have no right to talk to you as if you exist. However, I think it’s rude of me to declare you don’t exist, especially when I know Mr. Christ certainly existed. He can exist, be a healer, and there could still be no God. […]

  • The Truth About Lying

    First, I should recap my view of lies: A liar either believes I’m too immature to handle the truth or that they can fool me 100% of the time for the rest of eternity. Lying is an underhanded attempt at trying to seem perfect to other people (or yourself), while we all know we are […]

  • Autism vs. Traumatism

    I have been questioning: Am I really autistic? Part of me clings to it like a banner that explains who we are. Part of me says, ‘No, you’re not autistic at all, Crystal. You’re just seriously traumatized.’ Part of me asks, ‘Is that the same thing?’ I know autism is complex. I know it’s not […]